and I have a strong calling to write a book, so I will, effortlessly. Just observing what comes out of my hands.
Lately, I wake up with the thought; is this really my life; is it really this good? Then I smile and the message vibrating from my body is, “yes, it is.”
One of the things that I am appreciative of (as there are many) is the power of simply asking my body in each moment, is it a “yes” or “no”. This was new to me, for a while, and there was lots of bumping up against mySelf. As these times are few now and my life one of joy and bliss, these are experiences that I only had glimpses of, in the past.
This all started with honesty for me. Honesty with mySelf. It started with my daughter and my partner. The lines of energy were so blurred between my daughter and I when I started choosing to live differently, that I started very simply. She would say something like, “do you want to want to go to the movies” and I would drop my shoulders, relax my belly, take a few deep breaths and check in with my body? Out would come, yes, or no. The looks I got were and are very memorable. I mean, really where does the conversation go from there, for a child who’s mother spent 10 years trying to knock her daughters socks off. This moment was “evidence” of both being internally referenced and the fact that change can be instantaneous. It was in this moment that we truly started to engage, signal to signal, engaging and creating as we go, relaxing into the moment, as I mirror how to take a breath and own what is firing off in me so that she gets the opportunity to learn not to deny her signal. Wooo hoooo! here is my life and she gets a to have a life worth living. I have often understood that I don’t have to keep mySelf small in order for you to be big AND now I get, you do not have to keep yourself small in order for me to be big.”
This weekend was a marker of sorts for me. I phoned a girlfriend on Friday and said, “you are right, my ass really is sitting in the butter.” She has said this for years and I would protect or defend, explain or analyse. The happiness in me is a vibration that I get to enjoy, and enjoy and enjoy.
I will never “work” again. I have a book or two, in me and it is really wanting to come out today, so be it.
Let’s go.
