A collective of “in the moment connections.” Standing on the right side of the dotted line, the concept of a healthy, fulfilling collective is very new to me.
I remember a long time ago, Louise saying something to the effect of , I still have some small holes I can fall into, not many, but some. Who knows, maybe she doesn’t anymore. For me, the changes in my life in the last year and a bit have been profound. Seeing the Godforce that I am has been exhilarating. I thrive, my family thrives, with a complete redefinition or lack of definition of our roles and the rules that bind.
So, today, in a conversation I was surprised by how clear my experiences, in the past, with collectives have been nasty, dull or just not a sacred place for this Godforce. My experience with WEL-Systems and another new collective that “light me up” and celebrate my senses are opportunities to stand on the right side of the line. No trying, no disappointment, not friends, just simply living moment to moment as the Godforce I am and engaging in the moment.
The interesting information for me, has been my search for places to “belong” in the past, as I was certain I was not in the “right for me” place as a child, was sure I was not in a sacred place in my elementary and high school experience, then to a professional job (that looked good and paid well), a partner who was incredible to me or one that was just drop dead gorgeous and not good for me. In the end, it was a constant and sometimes frantic search to find someplace to “belong”. I used to joke that someday the phone would ring again and I would have a high level job and would belong somewhere, again. This has not been a rewarding nor fulfilling experience for me, in the past. As soon as I get the “great job” the two, three dance starts and three years later, I wake up exhausted and have to start digging for who I am again. No more.
The vibration that I am simply creates as I go, that there is nothing “out there” that is the answer and yet being part of collectives where it is easier to breath, take a step, find out who I am in that moment, breath and step again, is a good thing.
So. as my experience with collectives rise up, I breath, gratefully accept the green dot moment, and I get more of my life back.
Today is a good, good day.
Posted by marie smith on November 4, 2009 at 3:27 pm
Thanks Sandy!
Posted by Tanya Petraglia on November 4, 2009 at 3:47 pm
Sandra,
I can certainly relate about the “Good Job.” Then finding myself 2 years later picking up my pieces, and exhausted. There has been so much in the past year.. I am there right now. I am quitting Jan 1 2010. To be me, to be there for my son, to do what I love..money.. will come..I have been there before as a single mom, and my godforce then showed me through.
Thanks Sandra