What a weekend. I know that I am aware of when I am in the intellect and when I am in the body AND sometimes so much moves that sitting down and then laying down is the only way, at least for now, for me to say, “I give up”, and let the body truly lead.
I and WE (as a family) had one of those type of weekends. So much going on and so much of going into old situations of the same as the new people who we are and sometimes I felt comfortably detached and then boom, we have a hit.
The hit that is up for me right now concerns the evolution of our entire nuclear family. This wonderful child that we are raising asked her “new” grandfather twice to come and watch her horse back ride. He said no and I could feel the fire in me. Part of me knows that no one has to do anything you don’t want to do and the dichotomy rumbling through my body was (hmmmm…pay attention), pain in the back of my head right now, was, “she has three grandpa’s and not one that has the ability to show up for themselves with her.” I let this rumble through and then when I was still metabolizing it later, talked to my partner about it. He was furious and could not sleep so then I know that it had brought something up for him, about him. The next day, Grandfather number three came up to me and said if he is asked to engage with our child, by our child again, he will do it and that the next time he comes we will also do something as a family. Talking to my partner later, I asked him what happened. He had told his father how he felt AND he said, “he did this to me my entire childhood and he is not doing it to her”. Well!!!…talk about a charge. The rumbling for him was incredible, from a rumbling in terms of a stomach ache the night before to feeling out of it all day yesterday.
And the thunder rolls AND we all grew.
Posted by marie smith on October 6, 2009 at 9:36 pm
Sandy thank you and what a nice example of staying with the truth of your own experience…rumbled it around…and POW! out comes for someone else the truth of what has been kepted as a ’secret’ because they believed it didn’t have any meaning anymore. then the ripple affect…for our children to have a more ‘real’ experience and not be shut down. Then, our grandparents (parents) because we spoke up and out to them get to decide what is their truth. No one hides, ‘real’ to themselves, and my belief, most people are up for this is their lives! Beautiful!!!